UHHHHH I NEED ADVICE ASAP

~ haru ~ 12 Comments

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SO UHHHH I JUST GOT ASKED OUT BY A DUDE????????? MY BRAIN IS SHUTTING DOWN AS WE SPEAK I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO THIS IS THE EXACT OPPOSITE OF HOW THINGS SHOULD GO I AM PANICKING

THERE ARE SO MANY VARIABLES WHY THIS IS SO MUCH MORE COMPLEX THAN IT SEEMS LIKE

1. MY PARENTS WON’T LET ME DATE ANYONE OR GO ON A DATE (probably, honestly I don’t know and am too afraid to ask)

2. I’M NOT ATTRACTED TO THIS GUY NOR DO I REALLY KNOW HIM AT ALL, HE SEEMS NICE BUT I HAVE A STRANGE FEELING THIS IS EITHER A PRANK OR HIM TRYING TO GET LAID I DON’T EVEN KNOW

3. I REALLY WANT TO SAY YES BECAUSE HE SEEMS NICE AND I PERSONALLY KNOW HOW DIFFICULT AND NERVE WRACKING IT IS TO BUILD UP THE COURAGE TO TALK TO SOMEONE BUT I JUST CAN’T. I AM UGLY AND AWKWARD AND I DON’T KNOW HOW THIS WORKS

4. I’M PRETTY SURE HE’S DATING THIS GIRL ALREADY AND I AM NOT TRYING TO BE THE OTHER GIRL IN A RELATIONSHIP AND I ALSO AM ACQUAINTANCES WITH THAT GIRL AND SHE IS REALLY NICE SO IT WOULD BE EFFED UP IF THEY ARE DATING AND I AGREED TO GO ON A DATE WITH THIS GUY

5. I THINK WE HAVE A CLASS TOGETHER WHICH MAKES EVERYTHING WORSE LIKE….. I DON’T….

6. THIS HAS LITERALLY GOT TO BE A PRANK I CAN’T EVEN?????? SEE HOW SOMEONE WOULD BE ATTRACTED TO ME??? I’M GENUINELY THE WORST PERSON I KNOW WHAT IS GOING ON

SOMEONE’S WHO’S GOOD AT THIS SORT OF THING PLEASE HELP ME, I HAVE NEVER EXPERIENCED THIS SITUATION BEFORE AND I DON’T WANT TO EXPERIENCE IT EVER AGAIN OH MY GOD

(i’m also not trying to brag about how I got asked out by a guy or anything I swear I am literally panicking in real life.)

I’ve broken a world record

~ haru ~ 5 Comments

(actually I didn’t… sorry)

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actually posting on a normal schedule and not leaving for an abnormally long time (for me, at least) without notice?
but seriously, all jokes aside, it’s been almost 7 months since I last posted on here? (on Friday would’ve been 7 months officially)

that’s honestly kind of wack considering that I used to post here at least once a week or so, all sad about my life instead of like.. journalling or going to therapy or something normal. yeah I don’t really know why I liked putting all my struggles on the internet where anyone can see, but okay.

it would be more wack if I actually didn’t try to post on here at all.. but believe me, I really tried. I kept trying to write interesting posts to have an EPIC comeback to blogging, but none of them ever proved to be fruitful and instead, will never see the light of day because they’re buried in the depths of my drafts. you guys don’t even know what a hellscape that is. but maybe you will one day.. when I reach 1000 drafts which is likely to be soon, considering i’m at 972 right now.

i’m getting pretty off track here but I really don’t know what to talk about. my life has improved a lot ever since I dropped out of APUSH, which is probably the best decision I’ve ever made because I’m not as sad anymore. don’t take APUSH kids, unless your school has a really cool APUSH teacher and/or you really, really like US History. because I didn’t have either of those things…. I thought I was going to be fine because of my hamilton phase but boy was I wrong!!

okay i’m getting off topic again so I think I’m just going to end this post here. feel free to give me all the tea on your life, or tell me your favorite movie or book or something. or tell me a Netflix show or movie I should watch that doesn’t have excessive nudity or sex in it because I’ve had nothing to watch ever since I finished the good place.

-haru

RIP king :(

~ haru ~ 4 Comments

press F to pay respects.

but seriously, Rest In Peace to a freaking legend. Stefan Karl Stefansson, aka Robbie Rotten from Lazytown, died today.

not only was Stefan Karl a big part of my childhood because I was a Lazytown HOE, he was also part of my teenage years thanks to his memes. i don’t know Stefan personally, but he was always a huge optimist and enthusiastic about becoming a meme, even going as far as to perform his iconic song while he was battling cancer. he also loved his fans, and was just an amazing dude in general.

heroes get remembered, but legends never die. and Stefan Karl was a legend. he’ll always be #1 in my heart 😦

-haru

ew school

~ haru ~ 5 Comments

wow i haven’t posted on here in a while!

unfortunately that’s probably just how it’s going to be on here for a while, because… well, school started for me.

last year, and the year before as well, I was pretty capable of balancing my schoolwork, other stuff, and my blog. mainly because i was taking easy classes and to be honest, last year I didn’t really try at all.

but things are really different now. not only is the wordpress community significantly smaller than before, it’s also my junior year of high school. and everything I’ve seen about this year is “oh I had so many mental breakdowns junior year” and “junior year is the hardest”. in addition to that, i also made the terrible, terrible decision to take 2 AP classes and an honors class! might I mention this is my first time taking advanced classes, so… i’m not really sure what’s going on. at all.

if i reverted back to my old days, where i just posted what i wanted to or what was on my mind, and my posts were like 10 words long, I could definitely stay active on here. heck, if I did that I probably would stay active on here. but i’m not, as I stated in my new year’s resolutions from like a year ago, I wanted use this blog to post long, interesting, and actually good content. which i think i’ve been doing so far.

my life also isn’t that interesting. if you’re wondering why I never posted during the summer, it’s because I had nothing to talk about. i literally just stayed home and played video games for the most part, I left the house twice to hang out with friends, twice to watch ant-man and the wasp, and once to watch the new mamma mia movie. now that I’m thinking of it I could’ve made content out of all that but I didn’t so I missed my chance

so, yeah. I don’t really know if this post make sense, but basically, i’m probably not going to be active on here because of school. if you actually (for some reason?) like getting spammed with irrelevant and/or weird posts, ask me for my super secret side blog! i post on there a lot and you can bet your bottom dollar I’ll be continuing to post on there during the school year. (in fact, today I made two posts about the super smash brothers direct, did anyone watch that???????? we should talk about it if you did………… CHROM…….. richter and simon……….. i’m happy)

anyway, if you made it this far you’re a really cool person and you deserve some sort of award. personally, i’m sorry you had to read all that meaningless jargon!

-haru